Tuesday, September 11, 2007

NoT thE PhONE NumBEr...THE dAy & mY tHOUghTs


PErsonal feelings inside. i dont give a fcuk what you think. put your 2cents in the bank. i remember walking into mr. neville's history class and the tv was on and everyone had this sober look on their face. Now i never watched tv b4 school and we usually had a cd bumping in the cars so the news was fresh out of the oven when i walked into that classroom. i took my usual seat next to my friends since we didn't have assigned seating since we were in the "non-honors class", tried to chat it up with my friends about what was happening (since i had no clue what all this fuss was about), but to no avail. Once i heard what happened, all i wanted to see was the live footage of what took place. i think it was when i got home from school or practice is when i finally got to catch what was the one of the scariest things i had ever witnessed. Behind watching my dad die, the multiple car crash scenes i was involved in, and the results of my adventuresome personality which led to devastating personal injury, this was right up there. taken back with thousands of questions, i watched it over and over. i still to this day will watch it every now and than. to remind me maybe...the same reason the guy above got that tat.

it was devastating, and somehow kinda changed me in a way. personally i think the reason i have this giving and easily accepting personality is because of the suddeness of life being taken away. it scares the shit out of me seriously. wow just dazed off into space. take a second and a step back and just reflect on things...10 min lATER...

after much reflection and the sounds of the marley family and ben harper to accompany me, i just laugh at how they live so freely with this positive attitude. not pompous arrogant assholes that dont give two shits about the person next to them.

everyone has there own belief on the situation but in my opinion there should be no doubt about it. it should be clear and precise. we all know who started wars with who. the fact that i hold major negative feelings about the govt of the country i live in is not comforting. there going to do what they want no matter what anyone else thinks. why were still in a country for their oil.

if you dont have this doubt, go to youtube and just watch the videos. sketchy crumbling of buildings, shady wreckage in pentagon and diagrams of the damage. not just making this stuff up even though i am not 100% myself. haha

in closing, thanks and prayers to you and your family, anyhow affected by this day. i humble myself before you, and will not forget you. especially u dad.